Psalms 42:11

Picture yourself standing in the middle of a rainforest. The sound of the wind combing through the trees. Imagine the vibrant colors bursting forth as the sun kisses the flowers – breathtaking. All of a sudden the earth beneath your feet begins to quake and the ground around you begins to crumble.. It seems as if you are alone in the vast darkness.. What once was a place of life and beauty is now a darkness that steals the kiss of life from anything in its path..

So what do you do when life just goes wrong? What do you do when everything around you crumbles and falls apart? What do you do when all of your fears become your reality? Do you crumble or do you confess your hurt and frustration to the one who gave you the breath of life?

These past few weeks I have been struggling with my health, finances, relationships, constantly being on the go, and not seeing the fruit of a promise that God has for my life. I literally got to a point where I was so done with everything. If I could have taken a flight out to be with my best friend in the Middle East I would have! Instead, I cried out to God and poured the details of my heart into the depths of His.. Trusting and believing that the God I gave my heart to, the God that died for me, the one who asked me to lay my heart gently into His, actually cares about what I am going through. I chose to run into the loving arms of my Abba, my daddy, my best friend.. And you know what, He didn’t fix everything, but He gave me the strength to endure.. He gave me peace that surpassed my understanding and now I feel refreshed..

As you can see there are times when I feel like giving up.. There are times when this Christian life does not feel glamorous at all.. Thing is a perfectly pictured life, where nothing goes wrong was never promised..

Sometimes we go through life driving in the wrong gear.. We want to do things our way, we want to take it on ourselves.. We want to force shifts in our lives and push for things to be something that God is not okay with.. Sometimes, we want to do things that are good and are of God but its not for us to carry the weight of these things, it’s for God to and we don’t realise that life doesn’t have to be that miserable. We don’t have to do things in our own strength.. He can take control..

My prayer for you Beloved ones is that you will come to see Christ’s hand in your life. That you will turn to Him when your soul is downcast and allow Him to be your healer, refuge and strength. I pray that you come to encounter Him as the comforter for His word says, “Blessed are those who mourn for they will be comforted.”