Worth the wait (Day 2)


What Papa taught me yesterday was sparked through a conversation with a dear friend of mine. We had a 2 hour long conversation about relationships, singleness and dating. In that moment God opened my eyes to see the way He has been working in my life this whole time.

1 Samuel 16:7 (ESV)

But the Lord said to Samuel, “Do not look on his appearance or on the height of his stature, because I have rejected him. For the Lord sees not as man sees: man looks on the outward appearance, but the Lord looks on the heart.”

Like a good vigilant Father, God pays attention to the details of our hearts and desires. In a previous a post (Beauty of Singleness) I shared about my singleness journey. During that time of laying down the desire to date, I told God that I wanted the next person that I get into a relationship with to be my future husband.

Last night I came to the realisation that when presented with a possible suitor God makes it clear whether this person is for me or not. God honored and still honors my choice. He is walking me through the process of fully surrendering my all and coming to know what love truly is before joining me together with someone. 

In this time, I have come to discover why I desire a relationship and the things that I actually desire in my future husband. I had to lay down my superficial standards and allowed God to reveal the truth of what my heart longs for. Things that are not impossible to attain but things that go deeper than the physical. Example: the way he seeks after the Lord, the way he loves, his drive and his authenticity.. I have also come to recognise many things about myself. I had to really sit down and question, am I truly ready for marriage? Do I like myself? Would I be happy if I were married to me? 

My answer to those questions had me a little baffled and as a result of that I see the beauty in the wait. I see the beauty in the healing and the adventure of waiting for the right person to come along . .

The goal is to constantly put God first and surrender my heart to Him daily.

Do I always meet the mark? No. Am I always excited about it? No. Do I feel alone at times? Yes. Is it the end of life itself? No. Will I continue to pursue God? Of course. . God’s yes is worth waiting for. God knows me better than I do. He knows what and who is best for me even if that means my future husband is not 6’5 or rich lol. 

My prayer for you today Beloved Ones, is that, if you struggle with an unhealthy desire for a relationship that you would choose to lay down your desire and tune in to what God is saying about who you are. I pray that you come to know the joy of knowing Christ and desire His truth. I pray that all of you whether single, in a relationship, engaged or married will allow His love to consume you. I hope His peace surrounds you. I long for you to become filled to the brim with His love and that you come to recognise the true desires of your hearts! Stay Blessed. xox

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